Forget the Formalities

People don't understand me, and I like that. I don't fit the mold that many of my friends do right now.. they have different wants, different needs.

In high school I never, ever hung out with the group of girls who were always in relationships. I was ALWAYS with the free spirits, the independent leaders. The women who did not compromise any part of themselves for men. Not that they didnt have boyfriends, but they never whined about how much they wanted one (one of my biggest pet peeves) nor did they become sappy no-life-ers once they got em. I am very much an independent person. I hate depending on others because they tend to disappoint. I also find it hard for people to hold my attention for long periods of time. It is quite rare for me to find those people who are so secure with themselves that they dont compromise themselves for others. I havent found some of those people in a looong time.

I had decided to become more like normal people in my position (age, sex, location, etc) and be more open to relationships --whatever the hell that means (i really couldnt even say the phrase because i knew there was no way i knew how to accomplish it). But I'm not anti-relationships, no matter what people may think or how I may come off. The truth is that if I met someone who captured my attention, was a unique individual, had something to contribute, and i was attracted to them (which is the biggest problem, i amnot easily attracted to people) I would have no problem calling them my boyfriend. But, with the same token, I am unable to meet someone halfway. That is why I don't work like most. I understand that relationships are supposed to be able compromising and meeting the other person halfway, etc, but I think that is bullshit. If you can't accept me 100% exactly as I am, then we aren't meant to be. Plain and simple. I know I am not perfect. I am far from it. I know I'm wrong a lot of the time. But if I disagree with someone, I tell them. If I think someone is being shady, disrespectful, rude, etc, I tell them. Or I distance myself. And my partner needs to acknowledge that and accept it. I'm not changing anytime soon.

There is a reason that I am posting about this today, but I'm not going into it because I'm not going to place blame on people for being the compromising type. Most people are. I don't think that that is a problem. However, I have never ever understood how people disregard their friends, family, and whole entire lives because they get a boyfriend/girlfriend. Unless you are married, I don't excuse that behavior. If you don't make me a priority, you will not be made one in my life.

In the Gaga interview, I like how she says shes not "looking" for anyone. I'm not looking for anyone either. I'm very content being alone. I'm over pretending that I like people when I really don't. And i'm over trying to make things work that I know aren't going to. I just want to have fun (not be a slut, which people tend to associate that phrase with).

Okay, this is long enough.

Hipsters.

If you have ever read the wikipedia page for "Hipsters (contemporary subculture)" you have probably also laughed so hard milk came out of your nose. Just saying.



I love hipsters. I think I may qualify as one simply because of the myspace photo sesh. One can only dream.

The Travel Bug

I have a love/hate relationship with the Travel Channel. Everytime I watch it I want to get awayyyy.

I have been wanting to go somewhere nature-y all month but unfortunately it seems I will be in LA all summer. I'm supposed to go to Seattle with Mayra in August but we havent settled any details yet so I don't know if thats going to happen. I'm also planning to go to San Diego in a few weeks to visit V & Karolyn but that doesn't count. I want to roadtrip to grand canyon again or to the redwood national park (lol, yes, that is what i am watching on TV right now because of course I didn't know that existed). Ooo now Yosemite is on! I've never been there either!! Who wants to be my travel buddy?




Perhaps I should take that full-time job so that I can afford these excursions... However then I won't have any time for the trips. Boo.

Julian Casablancas.. so 8th grade.

Despite being my last day at school today (always both sad and WONDERFUL. mostly wonderful minus some friends going home to far away places) it has been pretty great. I think my final went pretty well =)

and my summer is going to be full of fabulous people, even though I'm not sure exactly what I'll be doing yet. But things are looking good.

P.s. when did Santogold become Santigold? I need to change my name. Just by one letter though. I'm thinking Kristo. Or is that too much like Christ? Krista? no... Kristx, Kriszy? I'm open to suggestions.

I'm not even gonna lie, I heard this on lanay's page and i LOVE it. Thanks, Nay. You always have had amazing taste.
(I decided to put this video because its the most entertaining, since there's no official video for the song).

Just a little bit dramatic.

"And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you"


Oh Mariah, you make the worst situations seem better. Minus your "touch my body" phase. And marrying Nick Canon.